There are billions of people in this world, and each of them have their own story to tell. Each story is unique. Everyone wants to tell there story, because you see, everyone wants someone to understand them, but out of the billions of people that you can tell your story to, no one will truly ever understand you. If you pour your heart out, and tell them everything about you that you think would make them understand, still no one truly will understand you.
So I've given up. I've given up trying to get people to understand me by telling them my problems. You see, it just doesn't work that way. For someone to understand you they have to have lived your life. So because no one has lived my life, no one will truly understand. I know that deep down I will always want someone to understand me and my problems, but I know what it costs for me. Every word that comes out of my mouth hurts. And after I say it, it hurts even more. I don't wanna feel that pain and regret. So here I am, I'm putting my walls back up, stronger than ever before. I'm bottling everything up, and I know I won't explode. I'm not shutting everyone out, I'm merely shutting up. If you really really wanna break down my walls, then well, you have to prove to me that I can trust you. I need to see who's really willing to try to break down my walls, actually anyones walls.
You see, a while ago, I got so close to a few of my friends, but then..everything just came crashing down on us. I realized that I couldn't get close to anyone anymore. It ends up hurting way too much. I learned to stop trusting people, and start keeping things to myself, but then I thought I was free, to start trusting more and more people. But things backfired. So here I am..again, wishing that it wouldn't be so painful, wishing...truly wishing for someone who truly knows my heart. . .
Maybe someday...
7 comments:
i really like that post Bex, hope you find what you're looking for...
Bex the understanding that you are looking for from human beings yes will always fail you, BUT God knows you every thought and action and your inner most being long before you are made. So yes peope are never going to fully understand you, but do not say that you can not be understood and put up the walls of your castle. Cast all your cares on the one who can truely carry your burden and see through the hurt around your heart and say "I still love you my child."
What are friends for? Friends are the poeple that you trust enough to laugh with through the good times and those that offer a shoulder to cry on through the bad.
You didn't understand a lot of what my family and I went through this past year, but that doesn't mean that you weren't there for me. I think that you don't understand how much it eased my burden just to talk with you.
No one will ever truly understand me or what I have been through, but its friends like you that just listen and try to that make a difference.
p.s. I forget to tell you that I loved the vid
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it is now March post something new
does anybody know how to get there profile pics to look bigger on their page because i'm putting the rose back up, my pic looks really tiny and it's annoying
That was a good post.
I bought that DVD last night. Who do you like better in Eragon? Eragon or Murtagh? (I'm trying to make you a B-day card)
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