Prepare to be AMAZED!!!!!!

Ok so for Variety Show, I'm trying to be this scene called Stomp. Or more fondly known as Drummer Boy, Stomp Style. :D I'm oober excited. here's the video. I'm one of the ppl with the trash cans. NOT the girls with the lids. THe people with the trashcans drummin on them. That's what I do. Here's the Vid-



Isn't it cool?!

Christmas!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL....A GOOD DAY!


oh yeah so today is Christmas!!! woot! anyway. So last night my family decide that by 9:00 we'd all be down to open presents. I woke up at 8:41, without an alarm clock. So we opened presents and we all got good stuff. It was weird though cause the second gift I opened was a scream. well not a funny scream, but a totally surprised and happy surprise. it was a cell phone!!! woot. Its cool that it's a newer version than my bros so it's nicer. So today's been a pretty good day, ya know, causse it's Christmas and all. lol. here's what I got-

A Cell phone
pajama pants
A Walk to Remember
Relient K (Let it snow baby...Let it reindeer)
Relient K(5 Score and 7 years ago)
The Daring book for Girls
Itunes Gift card(wich I have spent so rapidly)
Moleskin
2 Fountain Pens(blak, cause one of my classes requires it)
Hairdryer
Combat Boots(or so says my mom)
Aurealis Colors (book)
Cool shirt wiht superwoman and wonder women and catwomen
mentos
Gum
Chapstick
Starbucks Gift cards
Drama earrings
Christmas bracelet
box of lax balls

oh yeah... and I also got

A NEW LACROSSE STICK!!!!!

so now this winter I can start playin so i can play in the spring!!! yipee!!!


now I gotta go pack for my 6 day trip...to Gatlinburg TN. bleh. but MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

so what'd y'all get for Christmas??

Life seems to be catching up with me

You know how when you were little you always wanted to be an adult and would try to be in adult conversations, and then your elders would tell you to enjoy your youth? Or how (for the girls) you'd play house and pretend to be a mother of children and try to manage them all. Or maybe you play Career, and pretended to be teacher, or a doctor, or a fireman or something equally "heroic". I kind of feel like I'm getting ready to enter into that world of "grown up conversations" and hard work and taxes. And yeah, I do kinda feel like I've already begun to enter that world (which I have, even though i'm only a freshy), but I know that I have friends who are there already or are farther along than me. I say this to those friends with the upmost respect- I am so sorry. I say that cause I'm really sorry you will have to deal with finding the "perfect job" and getting the right college, and following your dreams. So why am I even talking about this?


Today I was talking with Clarence(my step-grandfather), and he asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up and was out of college. As we talked about it, he told me about how he didn't follow his dreams and didn't end up getting a career that he loved. I know I don't want that to happen to me. I know I want to follow my dreams and become something that I would be proud to tell my kids and grandkids about, and have them aspire to take up whatever I do. Make sense? Well then he said that I have only 3 years of highschool left. I dunno if it was just me but didn't this year go by really fast? I figured that I like being a kid and being able to goof off and go to concerts and hang out with friends and just have fun. I don't wanna grow up, but heres the real point-

I'm a dreamer. I dont wanna grow up to do something that I hate. Life is coming. Fast.
(I think i'm just scared)

My motto of this school year is this- I believe God created my to dream bigger and to fly higher than those around me.

I believe it, for multiple reasons. The thing is though, career wise, I want to do so much. I would tell you but that'd take a whole other post. But basically after college I want to...well actually I'd rather have y'all ask me in person or over aim cause I don't really wanna post it up for the world to see.
theres alot more I wanted to say about this but I figured I'd keep it as short as possible

maybe I'll write a song about it...


well this one hasn't been posted in a while, and I really like it. Here's Meg & Dia with Roses





Was it something I did wrong?
and NO i don't like him

A Taste of Shakespeare

I BROKE JOES HEAD!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, Joe's nickname is Hitler. He's not dead. infact he's not even mad and I dont have to pay for it either. Oh yeah, and I didn't break his actual head. I broke his snare drum head. Which is practically impossible to break. So yeah me. It was pretty cool though. All I did was hit it with a drum stick, which is what it's meant to be hit by. So he's not mad or anything. He actually wanted it to break. So it's broke and good.

I am here to invite you to come see the play titled A Taste of Shakespeare. Under the direction of Diane Smith, some of the students of Annapolis Area Christian School have put together this marvelous play. It is not a continuous play of a constant plotline and setting, no, for it is called "A Taste of Shakespeare". The first act is a dramatic and tragic piece of Macbeth. Then the second act is an act full of mistakes and hilarity, from A Midsummer Night Dream." I would definitely encourage y'all to come. The Play is showing Thursday, Friday and Saturday at 7:30 each night. The cost is $8 for students and $10 for adults. We're still trying to build an actual Drama/Theater Program for the school, so that's why the cost is so high.

Oh yes one more thing before I forget, to introduce each Act, the AACS Madrigal Singers will be singing so that will add an extra oomph to the play. If you don't know, the AACS Madrigals are probably one of the top chorus' for a school at least in Maryland if not on the east coast. So basically the play is gonna be amazing. See y'all there. ;)




So I have a speech to write. that's due tomorrow. Wish me luck. Fare well. (and I have all this homework to get done, and 2 exams tomorrow to study for and a shower and all this other stuff)


Listening to- America's Next Freak by FM Static <3

Ask a Ninja- Summer Jobs

I love Ask a Ninja



oh and I have a slightly new fondness for the band The Used.

But now I have to change my back ground again

Another totallly random blog post.

Listening to - The Mixed Tape by Jacks Mannequin

So the coffee house was fun the other day.

And today in the chinese restaurant I saw a guy with a crew cut and in the crew cut he had a star shaved into it. I wanted to take a picture of it but I couldnt because I didn't bring in my camera. It was cool though.

And we only had a half day of school today. The Sophomores and Juniors had to take PSAT's . Sucks for them. THe Seniors had a Retreat at Camp Havana. Makes me think of Cuban Cigars. lol

Listening to - Me and the Moon by Something Corporate

Oh and if you didn't know I sent my camera in to be fixed after it died. They apparently couldn't fix it so they gave me a new one for free. Its a LOT better. And I finally put the pics on my computer from the family retreat. SO those will be on facebook soon. yeah!!

School has been really good lately. I got a 24/25 the other day in a spanish test and a 25/25, and 15/16 in English and just really good grades lately. SO thats cheered me up. I have also taken on a sticky note pad in my locker with quotes and phrases that inspire me or make me think or laugh or anything to change my mood from what it currently is. it helps me be undepressed at school.

Strangely enough everyone at school thinks I'm shy and really quiet. and y'all know the truth.

But im really disappointed in one of my friends at school. he's goin out with this girl and I'm apparently the only one who doesn't think this should happen. And i dont wanna say i'm mad at him but I kinda am. Though I bet you can guess theres more too it.

Listening to - The Rescue by American Hi-Fi



Great song.

I think I"m gonna go up on my roof where no one can find me or here me and cry my soul out


Over and out

hahahahahahehehehehehe!!! oh and lifehouse

listening to Know your onion by The Shins

ok so I'm ecstatic and i'm happy that i'm ecstatic and it has nothing to do with band.
although the fact that we won against huntingtown and then we got put in first in the state is amazing. And well school for the most part stil sucks but it does have it's highlights.


Lifehouse- First Time
I didn't watch the vid so there might be something inappropriate on there. I dunno. you tell me.




i wanna say sometime meaning ful right now, but I dunno what to say.

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet Those who like you have well refined tastes

What Kind of Pie Are You?

I believe I was created to dream bigger and to fly higher than those around me.




so yeah, for the next few days or maybe a really long time, Im gonna be flying high, really high. ;)

quick-ish update

So real quick lemme tell ya what's been goin on. Last weekend was the family retreat. My camera was kinda broken so I didn't get any pics on my camera, but I put my memory card in Amanda Sillamans camera and I got some pics with that. I'll post those later when I got more time (probably never at the rate im goin). but the family retreat was really fun. It wasn't one of those trips where something dramatic happens so it's totally memorable for the rest of your life. This was one of those weekends that was just fun. Nothing big happened so it's not gonna be as memorable as -oh lets say- last year. But it was still really fun. My bridge didn't do very good. and please dont remind me how it did. but enough about that.

oh and last weekend at the fall retreat AACS Marching band has their first competition of the season in Lancaster PA. We placed 3rd and didn't do that great apparently

So this is a vid of the band last year at Chapters in Scranton PA. THe theme is "The Coming of the Messiah" Christmas music in November...I guess it works. this is actually only 1 song. but it was amazing.



So I just got back from a Marching band competition where we placed FIRST!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOTTT!!!!!!!! well it wasn't my best show (considering it's my first) but that's ok cause WE GOT FIRST!!!!!!!!so yeah. congradulate me and betsy. oh and we got best brass, and auxiliary(guard), and best pit crew. so yea. we rock. oh and we're up 10 from last week!!! yeah us!!!


So school still sucks(thanks NoNo for the list) but it is slowly starting to look up. I ran for Vice President for my class. I lost. thats ok, I dont have any time for it anyway. I'm already an officer for the drama club and a key member of the Pit Percussion. And it a popularity contest anyway and I really dont wanna be a part of that. Sorry for not blogging. life is really heck-tick lately and I just dont have alot of time for the computer. so I'm really tired, and I think I"m gonna go to bed. so i'll see y'all later.

luv-bex

him: dont hate school to much
me: why not?
him: because that place is where you will make friends for the rest of your life
him: its also where you make the path for the rest of your life
him: ill leave you with that

High School Musical- I Gotta Go My Own Way

So I'm not breaking up with anyone (not that theres anyone to break up with), but in a way I feel like Gabriella in this scene. I wanna go my own way terribly. I hate my school. I always have. Of course I like some stuff about it, but not much. I dont belong there. Anyone who really knows me would know that it's not the place where I would fit in. I'm not used to this. I keep falling to pieces in the middle of school. AACS will be fine without me. I'm honestly not dealing with it well. Maybe it's the truth of the matter. or Maybe it's just one of those phases...I dont really think so cause I've never liked the school. I mean, I like my classes, sorta, I like the activities, but there is just something about AACS that just...changed me quickly. On thursday, I barely said 2 words in class (except for in speech when I yelled at Chris, but that's another story), I was totally quiet, I barley even sang. (and most ppl should know that I love talking and singing)I felt uncharacteristically depressed...for no apparent reason. And I HATE when I have to adjust from how I am at AACS to how I am at church and home. I dunno. but right now I feel like the chorus from Cavanaugh Park by Something Corporate.

It was great. This summer was so great! I was so happy and ecstatic, now...I just dunno. Lots have changed already. But I know I really cant complain. There are ppl out there who have harder lives than me. So I thank the Lord that I have a great family go to a good school(even if I dont like it), have the bestest friends anyone could ask for, 2 obnoxious cats, food, clothes, shelter, and a lighter to play with.


So, what are y'all doin this Labor Day?

You Are a Roller Coaster

You live for excitement, adventure, and the most intense of thrills. Nothing is better than feeling you're truly alive, and you're willing to take risks to feel this way. In relationships, people often feel a bit nervous about what they're getting into... But generally, everyone enjoys the wild ride you take them on. Your life has more low points and high points than most people's lives. But that's okay - you love them. You figure that a smooth ride is boring! Besides, you know that super high highs only come from knowing super low lows. You cherish every emotion you feel and feel it fully. Why deny what life is truly about? At your best, you are loving life and sharing your wild times with everyone you know. You are able to open your friends up to a whole new world of experiences. At your worst, you feel extremely disoriented and even a bit dizzy. There's only so much intensity a human (even you!) can take.

What Carnival Ride Are You?

There was never any place for someone like me to be totally happy


Listening to Broken by Amy Lee and Seether

Our Lady Peace- Made of Steel

thanks Joey. great song




So school for me has officially started. its just like homeschool, but lots more ppl, limited time between classes, more books, more walking and more teachers. I like the fact that I get to see my friends everyday. But it's gonna start making everything seem soo slow so it's gonna feel like forever for the weekend to get here.

oh and band camp was interesting. for those who missed it, Betsy NOlen described it as hell with whipped cream. that was pretty much it. i'll post pics later...or what I got of pics.

You are Flat Sandals

Casual yet flirty You look great in a simple top and jeans Your look is approachable and cute!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

OMG!!!!! SUMMER IS OVER!!!!!! thats sad.

THIS IS A MANLY FIGHT!!!!

Listening to- This Charming Man by Death Cab For Cutie

So I just got back from Florida. I had a very *interesting* time there. I hung out with a bunch of...ppl...who smoke...pot...and...drink...and have mouths on them....just an ordinary week. no biggie though, they didnt get high or drunk while I was there, so that's good. but I had lots of fun. Made new friends, and connected with old ones.

lets see...I got back on Wednesday...then on Thursday...well that day was full of strawberries and lemons. so I guess it was an apple day.

I got some shots in my arms, then I went to Matanda's[WHERE FUN IS THE ONLY WORD IN HER DICTIONARY] which is where the name of this post came from, then later I went to gymnastics which made me feel really depressed. the way home, my mom was being all in my face about school this year.



So we decided to play cranium but the playdough that comes with the came is totally retarded. so we got the other playdough (BALLS!) and it was all glittery, and Mike and Joey were sitting next to each other, and halfway through the game, Joey got the glitter all over his hands and he decided to attack Mike. So they're sitting there fighting, and we're like "who's winning?" and someone says, " I think Mike's winning." So Matanda is sitting next to mike and she starts to tickle him and Mike just shouts, "THIS IS A MANLY FIGHT!!" Irony is great isn't it? getting glitter on each other is definetly manly. watever.


Death Cab for Cutie- I Will Follow You Into The Dark



The worth and exellency of ones soul is determined by the object of it's love.
~ John Piper

listening to- Alexithymia by Anberlin

I'M GOIN CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bEFORe i go on my tirade lemme recap.

this past week was soo much fun. we had lots of fun in our room! ;) the projects were lots of fun too. basically it was an amazing week.

So on Saturday I got back from the missions trip. And since my parents were in Minesota this weekend Josh stayed at our house to "house sit." it was kinda weird.

my tirade-

so i'm sitting here wondering when my flight to Florida is. I wondering cause I wanna know if it conflicts with The youth group party or the Marching Band Picnic. So I check my moms email and I find out that I leave on Wednesday the 1st of August. aka in 2 days. So i start freaking out and not cause its in 2 days and I had no idea. i'm freaking out because I JUST got back from a slightly stressful and busy trip. I DONT WANNA LEAVE AGAIN!!! I've just been gone soo much this year and I dont wanna keep leaving my friends and everyone. maybe I'm just really tired from band. i dunno.

i'll put pics up later.


now 2 vids that balance everything out

a very loud song by Nightwish. you dont have to watch the vid. just listen...
(oh yeah. the song is called Nemo)




and now a much quieter video by Bon Jovi. Its called Till we ait strangers anymore. the vid is boring cause it isnt the real one. We're doin this song for somthing in band. here it is-

Fare Well World!

FAREWELL WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm goin on a misson trip this week so I'll be off the internet. CYA'LL!!!!!!

(if you live in the area you should come visit us at the church)

Who? What? When?Where? Why?

Listening to- I Want to Save You by Something Corporate


So answer these questions as best as you can.

Who controls us?
God gave us freewill, so do we just do whatever we want to?

What are we running from?
alot of ppl run from their pain. Is it the same with you? cause we all run...

When will we stop running?

Where are we headed?
are we going down the path of never ending strife and pain?

Why do we run?
Are we running cause we can or because we feel we have to?




just some thoughts



So I"m kinda on drugs right now...bennadryll to be exact. It makes me extremely tired in the middle of the day. And I"m a bit out of it right now...


oh and my computer is really really sloooooow

Nightwish-Over the Hills and far away

OK! this bandtotally rocks!! They're similar to Evanescence. but mostly in appearance. The girl...she has a higher vocal range than Amy Lee from Evanescence. AND she can split her vocal chords. ya know how you can play a 2 notes that go together on the piano? well she can do that....but with her voice. They're just amazing. Nightwish- Over the hills and far away.





oh yeah, THEY'RE FROM FINLAND!

and the girl you see singing in this vid left the band in *think) 2005. They have just replaced her. :(