You know how when you were little you always wanted to be an adult and would try to be in adult conversations, and then your elders would tell you to enjoy your youth? Or how (for the girls) you'd play house and pretend to be a mother of children and try to manage them all. Or maybe you play Career, and pretended to be teacher, or a doctor, or a fireman or something equally "heroic". I kind of feel like I'm getting ready to enter into that world of "grown up conversations" and hard work and taxes. And yeah, I do kinda feel like I've already begun to enter that world (which I have, even though i'm only a freshy), but I know that I have friends who are there already or are farther along than me. I say this to those friends with the upmost respect- I am so sorry. I say that cause I'm really sorry you will have to deal with finding the "perfect job" and getting the right college, and following your dreams. So why am I even talking about this?
Today I was talking with Clarence(my step-grandfather), and he asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up and was out of college. As we talked about it, he told me about how he didn't follow his dreams and didn't end up getting a career that he loved. I know I don't want that to happen to me. I know I want to follow my dreams and become something that I would be proud to tell my kids and grandkids about, and have them aspire to take up whatever I do. Make sense? Well then he said that I have only 3 years of highschool left. I dunno if it was just me but didn't this year go by really fast? I figured that I like being a kid and being able to goof off and go to concerts and hang out with friends and just have fun. I don't wanna grow up, but heres the real point-
I'm a dreamer. I dont wanna grow up to do something that I hate. Life is coming. Fast.
(I think i'm just scared)
My motto of this school year is this- I believe God created my to dream bigger and to fly higher than those around me.
I believe it, for multiple reasons. The thing is though, career wise, I want to do so much. I would tell you but that'd take a whole other post. But basically after college I want to...well actually I'd rather have y'all ask me in person or over aim cause I don't really wanna post it up for the world to see.
theres alot more I wanted to say about this but I figured I'd keep it as short as possible
maybe I'll write a song about it...
well this one hasn't been posted in a while, and I really like it. Here's Meg & Dia with Roses
Was it something I did wrong?
and NO i don't like him
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I really like Meg & Dia's sound. Tis pretty awesome. :)
urgh, I've already been pushed off that cliff into the abyss of adulthood forced by unanimous decision that I should grow up and help with my fair share of house work and cooking and listening in on too many conversations between my mom and dad in the car I HATE POLITICS and yet I'm completely absorbed in them and helping to campaign for Huckabee. WHY??? I want to be a graphic designer and artist for crying out loud, which reminds me do you want a new header??
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